Sunday, June 7, 2009

Goodbye.

I think I'm retiring this identity now. It has served me well, but I want to tell other stories.

If you have found this site and it has been helpful to you, I am happy. I am happy that my experiences with my husband's addiction have been useful.

And to anyone who might find it for the first time, please know that God is with you. In the most difficult times, I've been able to feel God's hand holding me, carrying me through.

I can offer no better advice than this from pg. 164 of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous:

Abandon yourself to God as you understand God. Admit your faults to Him and to your fellows. Clear away the wreckage of your past. Give freely of what you find and join us. We shall be with you in the Fellowship of the Spirit, and you will surely meet some of us as you trudge the Road of Happy Destiny.

May God bless you and keep you -- until then.
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24 Folks Say:

Mary P Jones (MPJ) said...

Oo, you did open up comments! Wheatever. I'm done commenting. I'm writing you a tribute post instead. I'll miss your blog, baby. Love you!

Jenny said...

Thank you for your wonderful writing, you have helped me greatly through some difficult times. I will miss your blog, I'm sad to see it end, but I wish you all the luck and happiness in the world.

Enigma said...

So sad to see you go, but I hope its for the best. Thank you for being my gateway into this wonderful blogging community and especially for founding the JWC. I pray for nothing but the very best for you.

You will be greatly missed!

Sophie in the Moonlight said...

I've been looking for you for weeks. I'm sad to see you go, but I realize life takes us on new adventures and old coping skills/outlets are no longer appropriate.

I do appreciate this last post. The previous dead end made me worry. Nothing worse than a fretting codie. (:

Thank you for all you do and have done, especially for your great legacy: the JWC. I don't know what almost 300 folks would do without it.

Namaste.

Tigermom said...

Add my best to you to the long list of well wishers TJW. Thank you for the privilege of having been let into your world, even though it had painful parts. I learned a lot and admire the heck out of your strength and persistence. If you ever come back out, I will be there listening for your voice.

~Issy said...

I am going to miss your writing as you are a gifted writer. Your posts have, at times, been heart-wrenching to read and i found myself praying often for you.

May you find the peace you are looking for....

Many hugs....

Anybeth said...

Will miss you terribly, but I hope someday to be buying a book written by you in a bookstore. I'll be looking for it.

Recovery Discovery (R) said...

I love you, chickenhead! Sounds like you're making a good decision for you. You'll be missed in cyberspace!

cbennett said...

You will be missed by many people. Your writing has helped me in a lot of ways. I wish you all the best and hope all works out the way is should. Take care!

Mantramine said...

Ahh jw... I love you. lama farms, wizard sleeves, and everything.

I can't wait to read your other stories

Cat said...

Comments are open for the finale'. It has been my pleasure reading you - even when you spoke about the brittle and painful things that are going on you managed to write with such cause and care of the topic, you managed to show, sometimes with humor the raw facts of real life... and I do hope you keep on writing in some venue - because you are gifted.

Cat

fontaine107 said...

I will miss you. I never commented much, but I read your blog everyday. My husband is also an addict and I more than often not felt your pain. You are such a good writer and I admire your strength. Whether you stay or go, know that your life truly impacted mine. Your posts were so touching! Good luck.

Stagnant Artist said...

I am impressed and amazed you are letting go of the blog. It must be the next step in your discovery of you and your life. You are going to be okay and well. Good luck my friend! You always have us if you need us! Or come back here and kick some ass...

theotherbed said...

Wish I would have come here sooner. Thanks for this and for JWC. You have done good service.

And thanks for your kindness to me personally. Your diplomacy was an inspiration of integrity and compassion.

Your Voice will be missed, but as others have mentioned, I suspect it will emerge in an even larger forum.

becky said...

Much love and many blessings to you darling. I look forward to your writing on Second Road and am glad I'll be able to follow your healing.

I've been praying deeply for you and that you find all the Joy and Happiness you need.

You've help so many with this blog and our key to survival is being of service and that my friend you have done with flying colors.

your friend in PA, dharmagrlpa (becky)

Trying to take it one day at a time said...

I cried as I read this tonight. I will miss your posts dearly. Your blog was the very first I found and it's helped me so much and given me so much strength as I've needed it. I will come back and re read as I need the strength going forward. I will always keep you in my prayers and think of you with great love and hope. I wish it all turns out for the best for you. You will be missed oh so dearly.

abbie said...

I'm always too self-conscious b/c I think so highly of your recovery....that I never have anything that springs to mind to say. Just hoping that you have an idea of how much you have meant to so many of us in the blogosphere. You are a miracle, and I consider you to be a blessing.
YOU GROW, GRRL!!

Jade said...

Love your blog, love you, look forward to following you elsewhere on the 'net. Endless hugs.

Emily said...

Sometimes, when an addict is finally feeling backed into the last corner, they become willing to do whatever it takes, not whatever they think or whatever they want. And sometimes, they bolt, because they don't wan't people to see what comes next.

I hope someday you break your addiction's back. It has been a painful read.

And what your husband ends up doing... is up to him.

It sounds harsh, but it is my perspective.

I've read you from day 1.

longvowels said...

i miss jw.

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JillieCat said...

Thankyou for making this blog.. It was very brave of you! I am new to it, but have started reading the oldest posts first. It helps to read someone elses thoughts about something I am going through since I dont really have anyone to talk about it with.

Athena said...

I stil have so many who find my blog through yours here - over a year later.

*hugs*

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