Letting Go.

I realized something today in our meeting. I am having a hard time letting go. It's been a bad couple of days, and I'm not able to get still with myself. I know that it's a choice I can make to start using my tools, gathering myself up, and moving forward, and that I'll feel better if I make this choice.

But I don't want to. I don't want it to be over, because then it's really over. If I move on, it means it's done. I don't want to give up yet.

Today, I'm choosing to stay in pain to keep from letting my husband go.